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He is a few years older than me, but I figured age doesn’t matter if we have a good chat.  We got to talk about many things, mostly music though.  After many more conversations, I realized I was really starting to like him.  We discussed everything, our likes, dislikes, our troubles and our dreams and the more we talked the more amazed we became at how much we had in common.  Weeks went by and every evening we would meet up and talk, the two hours becoming four then six.  The weeks had become months and after that I started realizing how much I love talking to him, and how much I enjoy sharing things with him, and I love to hear his ideas and the way he think about everything.  So one day, he asked me if I ever think about him in a different way other than a friend, I never thought I would have to answer a question like that because I wasn’t sure my self what to say. I didn’t want to mess everything up by saying that I don’t think about him in any other way, in the meantime, I didn’t want to make him think that I love him in another way, I was afraid that if I find out later that I am not it would break his heart.  I honestly don’t know what to say when he left me all the messages offline telling me how he feels.  Well, it was Gabby’s fault (lol!) yeah, I was chatting with his daughter that night while he is making dinner and she said she have some secret to tell me and she started telling me how much her dad likes me.  And then I remember her asking me if I can be her step mom.  I don’t know what to tell her so I told her about this girl he met instead and how much his dad likes her, and me and her dad are just friends.  So after that he came in and of course he read our conversation and told me to ignore what Gabby said.  Then the next day I came online only to find all his messages telling me that he want us to be more than just friend.  I was speechless, I don’t know what to say but then I was happy, I admit I have feelings for him too. But I keep it to myself because I don’t want to ruin our friendship. And that time his love was unfolded to me, I thought I was dreaming, I wrote him back telling him how I feel about it. At that time, my life change, I wasn’t bored anymore.  I feel excited every time I come home knowing that he is there waiting for me.  I look forward everyday of talking with him, spending hours online just to talk to him.  I spent almost every waking moment talking to him and my sleeping moments dreaming of him.  As time goes by we really found out that we really do love each other as much as we could just speaking online.   We continued talking but this time it went on an even deeper level. It was so apparent to us both that we needed each other and everything about us was so compatible. I was able to finally send him letters and recent pictures of myself, and the way he reacted to them made me blush with delight. He told me how beautiful I was and everything. Although we see each other on web cam, I still manage to send him cards and pictures.   As we talked more and more we learned even more about each other, helped each other through stressful times with work, family and just about everything.

After nine months, He said to me that he has the chance to come and see me in person, I was extremely surprised with what I heard and so much happy as well. We were so excited and as the time grew nearer we also became a bit nervous.   April 14, 2005, Dave flew to Taiwan to visit me. Finally he is on the plane ready to take off from American grounds to land on Taiwan’s airport where I would be waiting to meet him and pick him up.  The night I picked him up at the airport in Taipei was filled with thrill, nervousness and excitement.  I was so nervous that time, I am going to see him the first time in person but also I’m all alone and I am not familiar with the place. But the moment his plane arrived I cant describe the excitements I felt, I am nervous and happy that finally I will be able to touch him and hold him and kiss him. As he walked out into the arrival section, my heart was basically in my throat.  I felt glued to the spot I was standing in when he came out.  I stood there for what seemed like an eternity, before I could finally move.    I looked at him standing there looking for me, he is sooo handsome and everything I had imagined him to be.  Then he turn to where I was standing and he saw me waving at him.  While I was walking to go around the people and railings my heart is pounding so hard I cant breath.  I was so nervous and shy to face him, I couldn’t look at him in the eyes, but I manage to give him a hug. Oh I thought I was dreaming, I finally was meeting him! Though we had been far apart with the ocean between us and never met each other we did not feel unfamiliar.  Maybe because of predetermined fate? At our first meeting I felt like I’ve known him for a very long time, I really do believe he is my soul mate.   But, let me tell you, when Dave took me in his arms and held me for the first time, I knew that it was meant to be.  How did I know?  I can’t explain it.  I just knew.  It was a gut feeling and feelings coming from my heart.  But, to explain how I knew he is the one, that’s something that I will never be able to explain.  I look back on it now and laugh.  But, that first embrace was all I needed to seal my love for him.  When he put his arms around me, I knew that I hadn’t made a mistake. 

to be continued…

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